Note to Self

“Hey girl,

It’s been a bit since we’ve written any journal entries – thus fulfilling the prophecy of the first entry, haha. But, I need you to know something.

Love is hard. It doesn’t always work out the way that you hope it will.

And that is such a good thing.

You are allowed to hold space for boys you once cared for, while recognizing that they aren’t it. You’ve been through hell in ways that many others haven’t. You’ve had some unique struggles and challenges when it comes to this part of your life, it’s true.

But there is healing for all of it. In Jesus, in deep friendships, in true singleness.

There is so much healing done through living fully in the freedom that you’ve been given. You’ve seen and ran in wide open spaces that set your soul on fire. You’ve stood on top of mountains that absolutely humbled you and brought you to your knees. The world has been yours for the taking and you have acted accordingly.

Without even realizing it, old wounds have healed over. The scars still twinge now and again, but you feel them for what they are – old memories that should remain that way. Thankful, but done with them. You don’t internally flinch anymore and you smile so much more.

The Lord has filled your life with far better people and experiences than you ever prayed for. You wouldn’t believe it even if I tried to tell you. The trials and the fires really have refined you and now the days shine like gold.

Things are hard, there is no doubt. But, you have come so far, and I am so proud of you for it.

I look forward to reading this entry in another two years to see all that’s happened since then. I can’t wait to tell you all about it.

Always remember that the Lord knows your heart, and He provides in abundance every time.

I love you. I’ll see you in the mirror.

♡ Bekah”